Beautiful Day

Not only was today beautiful, but so was Easter. I had dreaded it, but it turned out to be a great day. I did fine through the church service...only a few tears...spent the main part of the day with my family and then went to Steve's sister's house. I went late, but I still went, and that was a big step. Steve has a brother with Downs Syndrome, and he and Steve were extremely close. When I got there Easter evening, he rushed to me and gave me a huge hug! It was wonderful! He and his parents left shortly after I got there, but I did get to see everyone a little. After everyone left, Steve's sister and I sat and talked for about an hour. It was a great talk--a lot about Steve, wondering why, wishing we had had more time, etc. etc., probably the same thing everyone goes through after losing someone unexpectedly. Today also was a beautiful day. It was seven weeks ago today that he died. I went to the cemetery today and took flowers and made it as pretty as is possible when it is still fresh dirt. It is such a quiet, peaceful place, and I love to go there. It was hard at first, but I'm getting ok with it. I have a routine--I sit on a blanket in the same spot each time and write in my journal. It is good. Quote I received today from a friend: There may always be a place within you that's empty, a wound that never heals. Value it. It's God's way of sustaining your connection to the man who was so significant in your life. I love that!